generic foreword

i am very bad at consistency. i don't know if it can all be surmised to laziness, disinterest, or a fear of succeeding; but i've always seemed to be incapable of doing something that requires more than the usual of me consistently for more than a handful of times x a few times a month/year (depending on what it is). so this may very well be my first and last entry. but my purpose with this blog is to have a place to record my life and my understanding of myself and surroundings for several reasons. i'm at a place in my life i have never been at before. i would like to have a confessional that holds me accountable because it is accessible to whomever should come across it. i am interested in bettering myself in a way that involves self-reflection be it on the past, or the past posts i will write. to the future jill reading this, i hope you are who you want to be right now when you read this.